Saturday, April 24, 2010

Level Head

I know I'm usually the one telling other people they're crazy, or that they're not thinking straight, but tonight I think I'm one of those people. I feel like I need to just get away from everything with which I currently have any connections. The reason I say I'm crazy is because of the word "feel". I don't feel things when it comes to decision-making. There are pros, cons, trade-offs, etc., but no decision needs emotions. Emotions might make a decision easier to make, or might make the result better or more enjoyable, but you really don't need them.

I try to look at things as cut and dry as possible because I don't need my emotions clouding my judgment. "Do I want to hang out with so-and-so tonight?" My emotions would say yes, because I have no one else to hang out with, and I hate being alone. But common sense says "No, don't hang out with him/her; that person is a douchebag who will do nothing but waste your time and drag you down in every possible aspect of your life." And since I'm all about the long-term, I have to go with common sense in that situation.

I wish I could keep my emotions from getting to me when I'm executing these long-term decisions. I don't need anything telling me that I'll feel sad or lonely when I make a decision, because I already knew that was the case in the first place, and I already took that into account when I made my decision. I know that makes me sound a bit stoic and boring, but it's what's gotten me to where I am today. People don't come to me for advice because I'm as much of an emotional wreck as they are, y'know. I pride myself on having a level head in just about any situation, even when everyone else has lost it emotionally.

And yet, here I am, struggling to fight back emotions that I feel would negatively influence the decisions I want to make in the near future. To what or whom does the level-headed guy turn when he needs level-headed advice?

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